29/08

I've never kept a diary when I was a kid, I don't know why. Sharing your thoughts to yourself felt strange as technically you always feel them. Maybe because putting them in print or on paper, handwritten, makes the feelings or situations real. It the same way though, ignoring said situation does not make it go away or somehow dematerialise.

Transphobia and violence against trans women will not disappear, the hostility that I feel from cis people will still be just as real whether I write about it or not. Does that mean you should stop talking about it, fighting it? Fuck no.

I've read somewhere the most important thing you can do as a trans person is to live. Sometimes living is just surviving day by day, sometimes it is just opening your eyes after waking up and going through the motions of waking up, having breakfast, getting ready for the day. Maybe it's just surviving, minute by minute, till a moment where you can catch your breath and feel the sun or wind on your skin.